Sometimes I wake into the middle of the night to all that darkness, quiet and mystery. Sometimes, I reach for the covers and pull them just under my chin because even at my age the feeling of being tucked in is a safe one.
Sometimes I sense it in my bones, what's next. I don't breathe and I don't dare be so smitten with it all as to knock on wood. No, I know. Trouble is just around the corner.
She can be charming, that one, a crooked smile, a slow and direct wink. Trouble could be what I believe, or it could be my hopes, his explanations, her laugh, a missed heart beat. Trouble loves to be wrapped in words. Doesn't matter what form it takes, trouble is coming.
Trouble is that I saw it coming when I woke up. I could smell it, through the windows. I sensed the way my hair felt flat and sticky on my neck. I sensed it in the air that someone else was breathing.
I can do nothing to stop it. Trouble is here. Maybe not for you, but for me. Trouble is flirting with my focus and tickling my wounds. She wants out, this one. She wants to play.
I sit here at my kitchen table and I wrap myself in my own arms. Hold on, honey, looks like a storm is coming.